What Do You Do When You Run Out Of Positive Vibes?

There are times when I wish life was much simpler. There are times when I wish I could go out without having to deal with stares and questions from curious passersby. There are times I wish God could have spared at least my face and only gave me scarred hands so that I could be thankful for a flawless face at least. There are times I wished I wasn't the one who was in the room that day the fire happened. There are times I feel so pathetically sorry for myself especially whenever I scratch my dried scars until they bleed. There are times I feel so angry that whatever happened chose to happen to me. BUT the question is never 'WHY ME?' isn't it? It should be 'WHY NOT ME?' These are the times I run out of my usual positive vibes and I end up shedding tears so unnecessarily.

But are those tears really unnecessary? Sometimes it is alright to feel sorry for yourself. Sometimes it is alright to cry. Sometimes, nobody feels it until they are in your shoes. Sometimes, it is alright to mourn. Sometimes, it is fine to feel that you are the only one against the whole world. Everyone feels this way at some point of their lives.

Just don't let it consume you. That is the key. Don't ever live your life everyday feeling sorry for yourself because it isn't worth it. Yes it is usual to feel that way when something bad happens to you but when you do it everyday it becomes the worst habit that you could ever have. Whenever I start feeling this way, sometimes I do cry but most of the time, I start listing down at least ten things that I am thankful for in my life and in someway, it does help me to feel much better about life.

A few days back, I finished reading a beautiful book titled 'Tuesdays With Morrie' and it was one of the most amazing book that I have ever read and the most inspiring thing about it, was the fact that it was inspired by a true story of a professor who had ALS and his student (the author, Mitch Albom) who used to visit him every Tuesday to talk about the meaning of life. At one point, Mitch would ask Morrie, the professor if he ever felt sorry for himself and all that things that he could not do because of his condition and Professor Morrie would answer, “Sometimes, in the mornings,” he said. “That’s when I mourn. I feel around my body, I move my fingers and my hands—whatever I can still move—and I mourn what I’ve lost. I mourn the slow, insidious way in which I’m dying. But then I stop mourning. I give myself a good cry if I need it. But then I concentrate on all the good things still in my life. On the people who are coming to see me. On the stories I’m going to hear. On you—if it’s Tuesday. Because we’re Tuesday people. I don’t allow myself any more self-pity than that. A little each morning, a few tears, and that’s all." AMAZING I KNOW! So glad that a friend recommended this book to me.

So it is alright to feel really negative at times but don't give it more than a few minutes and don't let it become a habit because life is beautiful if you know how to see an opportunity in every tragedy that has happened to you. I have so much to learn too and I welcome you to learn with me!

You get to choose. Damn right you do!